I wrote the article below last year after Ramadan had ended and I came across it again when I was spring cleaning my work-station, because we’ve all got this extra time on our hands right?!
Anyway, spring cleaning will now be renamed Corona-cleaning in my household as it has given us as a family an opportunity to really assess what we 𝒏𝒆𝒆𝒅 and utilise in our home as opposed to what we thought we 𝒘𝒂𝒏𝒕𝒆𝒅, an amalgamation of stuff that might be used.
So far we’ve only got as far as Corona-cleaning the dining room but hey we have time in sha Allah 🙏🏽
This past week has brought up a lot of emotions, well let me rephrase that, a lot of emotions have been brought up in this past week (the 𝒊𝒏𝒔𝒊𝒅𝒆𝒐𝒖𝒕𝒆𝒓𝒔 will get this😜 )
Have a read of the article and I’ll pop my musings on at the end…
…reading back on this I began to reflect upon my situation and I was struck with a strange feeling that this was how I felt right now.
This past week has felt like an awakening, a questioning, a calling myself to account, a reasoning and I have felt a deepening desire to help, a need to be of service, a yearning to show love and be loved, an urgency to forgive and be forgiven and most importantly, an epiphany.
An epiphany, an insight an aha moment – a truth.
In this past week I have felt a knowing. A slow gradual metamorphosis from uncertainty to certainty and in these uncertain times I’m not even certain if that’s possible but what I feel in my mind, my heart, my soul is that now, this time, right here is the main event.
I cannot but draw the comparisons of how I’ve been feeling and living this past week with how I feel and live during Ramadan. Around the children I am conscious of how relaxed I feel about how much they eat, how they’re spending their time and what expectations I have of them and I realise that I am more aware of how and what I eat, how I spend my time, how meaningful I want my interactions with my family, friends and community to be and the expectations I have of myself.
I have asked myself lots of questions really and the dialogue in my head keeps circling back to one thing – my connection with Allah. Now, for those of you who don’t subscribe to the Islamic faith or any notions about the God then substitute the word ‘Allah’ with ‘infinite intelligence behind life’ or ‘universal mind’, to me it’s all the same. This connection, and the desire to strengthen it, be rewarded for it, be forgiven for not seeing it clearly sometimes, is undoubtedly the most pressing ‘thing’ on my mind during Ramadan. Although I am not in a state of fasting right now, I feel as though this experience is the perfect synergy of the most Ramadan-esque environment outside of the actual month of Ramadan because I am more:
conscious of my words, fasting of the tongue
conscious of my intentions, fasting of the heart
conscious of my thoughts, fasting of the mind
and conscious of what I need to sustain me in food and drink, fasting of the body
The greater jihad is the striving, spiritual struggle within oneself and post Ramadan this struggle is very real. I feel as if this time is paving the way and allowing an internal and external foundation to be laid to prepare us for the coming auspicious month and as Muslims we are coming to terms with spending it in lock down. This in itself is all part and parcel of our personal and collective struggle and right now even though I know it’s not Ramadan, I feel as if the blessings afforded in that month are all around and more importantly within me.
I am being guided to pray on time, be more patient with my children and sow seeds of connections now that will flourish and be nurtured when ‘this’ is all over. For me that encapsulates the holy month and right now 𝑰𝒕’𝒔𝒃𝒆𝒈𝒊𝒏𝒏𝒊𝒏𝒈𝒕𝒐𝒍𝒐𝒐𝒌𝒂𝒍𝒐𝒕𝒍𝒊𝒌𝒆𝑹𝒂𝒎𝒂𝒅𝒂𝒏…
How does it feel for you?
Farah is married, has 4 beautiful children and lives in sunny Essex. Farah is certified Inside Out Parent and Child Coach who helps clients uncover their innate awesomeness. She runs online coaching programs and in person workshops.
Farah is a Transformational Life Coach who helps her stressed out, overwhelmed and overstretched clients uncover their innate awesomeness and God given gifts to lead a life of insightful wisdom and peace. She serves professional Muslim women and supports them to overcome the challenges that prevent them from being the Muslimah they want to be and guides them to create the life they want, to live a life they love. Farah is a mother of 4, international speaker, author, ex-panellist on the Islam Channel’s Women’s AM show, co-chair of an online group via the Nisa Nashim initiative to promote interfaith understanding, foundation class madrassa teacher, mentor and Life Coach, coaching from the understanding of the Quranic psychology of the self, the Science of the Nafs.